One of my biggest and well kept secrets were thrown out into the open. Literally thrown. After many skipped meals and clenched fists, I finally let go. I was let way off my guard and I then drove home in the fog. As much as I don't still want to be sick, I'm so nauseous.
I never make such large deals out of anything. I'm one of the most passive individuals sometimes, and most times I get caught under the bus. Yet this time, I want to take this in as a learning experience. I never really thought it was an issue just letting things fly, being so open with all of humanity. But I hate being caught under the bus. I hate when I lose control of my own life, I lose control of my own situations and decisions because no one else believes me when I say that I'm okay. That may have been what sucked the most. No, it definitely was. I have always fought my own battles. And for someone else to impose? I got aggravated, of course I did.
Things will be the same in days, months, years to come. You will still be the moon, you'll still be the stars, and you'll still be a bird. I meant it when I said I would love you forever. This just struck a chord.
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