brand new day

Yesterday was one of the busiest, yet most relaxing days. I went to lunch with my red-headed friend Theresa. We share the same love for coffee, so instead of eating at lunch, we went to Gray Owl to get lattes. She always gets an iced mocha. It never fails. My absolute favorite is the vanilla latte. It's so strong, but at the same time it's milky and sweet.

After lunch, Brooke and I came to my house to work on our project that we have barely started. Feeling too energetic and alive to work on homework, we met up with a few friends and spent time with them instead.

I went to dinner with a few of my old close friends, then two of us went to the school musical afterwards. The musical was really good, with really good acting, but I had to leave early so I could reunite with Brooke. I picked her up from work and we came to my house and made tea. She always drinks the fruity stuff. We curled up in quilts and watched the first season of friends.

We talked about nearly everything. About how her boyfriend is acting like mine did the last month of our relationship. He just doesn't seem to care like he used to. When I told her that's how Collin acted before we broke up, she got scared. But it seems like she's so much stronger than I am. I get too sucked into things and don't realize what I'm letting myself get into. I told her that I really think this is where I'm supposed to be in life. Now that the wound isn't wide open, it's easier to accept the fact that he's gone. Not easy, just easier. I never realized that I was giving him parts of myself that I didn't want to give anyone. No one was worth it. But I got caught up in the whole thing and let everything go. Kelsey and I talked about how this is going to teach me a lesson. Everything happens for a reason. Although at first it was awful to even think about, it's starting to look up. There's a reason I let that happen. I'm okay with knowing that. I'm okay with knowing that I'm alone. It's nice. I really don't mind at all - such a liberating feeling.