it's okay

I haven't forgotten about this one.

I scheduled my quartz audition today.

January 30 2-4:30

I need to start writing.

Also for my application into SCAD.

Mmm. Today was the last day of first semester. Tuesday, when we go back to school, I'll get my last high school schedule of my life. I also start my third class of my college career on Tuesday. World Music at 1:30, History at 3:00.

God, thank you for the A's I'll be getting.

I beat myself up for the C I got in government. I think I cared way more than my parents did.

Did I tell you I got my first speeding ticket on Monday? School zone. I have ... almost a week now to pay it. I need to get on that before I have a warrant out for my arrest. Hahaha, that's funny.

I wrote this today -

open eyes
searching, trying to discover the ultimate mystery -
the end of the journey.
most important journey
pushed and pulled by the hands
that keep a tight grasp; always.
never letting go, i find myself forgetting.
always pushing it back.
replaced by nonsense, creating a fog.
hazily traveling
keep me close.
like the thickness of the cold.
bitter cold, biting the tips of your fingers
and the surfaces that
used to know familiarity.
remember familiarity?
the ease of sliding out of the ocean
into the
sun.
squint your eyes,
narrow the vision.
it's always easy
until the unsettling cold.
lonely.
eyes wide.
searching.
just rest and remember,
but our eyes are still wide.