nothing has to be bad

sometimes we get caught up in everyday struggles, and we let them get the best of us. or i do at least. it's natural to feel worried, to sometimes get sad. just like it's natural to sometimes feel exceptionally euphoric; it's natural.
but occasionally you have to step outside of yourself and realize that we are living for something so much bigger than two weeks worth of school struggles. honestly, we go through this every semester. we get behind or we feel stressed out, and remember how we always get through it? we always get through it. nothing has to be bad. running around occc campus can be fun when you're trying to find a calculator, because i was almost laughing at myself when i ran into my class and received my grade-determining test. i really just slumped into my chair, nearly whimsically, and threw my arms down beside me, unloading all the breath i was struggling to find while running. it was funny. i was in such a hurry, and was temporarily so stressed out over finding something i'm now trying to get rid of, waiting here at the cafe for the wonderful girl who lent it to me. i want to buy her coffee, but don't have my card/any money at all on me.

there are several different things running through my head that i want to write about, that i want to say, but not any gumption to write it all down. actually, the difficult part currently, is how to organize it. like seeing charlotte, lulu and sid this weekend. i want to talk about how nice it was to feel so connected with them even after being apart for so long.about how nice it was that sid helped tyler and i feel more confident in where we want to go in life. like if we are meant to go to boston, it'll all work out, it'll all be okay. he helped show us the best place to live, it was nice.

i don't know, really. i don't know what exactly i'm trying to say.
but not everything has to be bad.