fall baby, always

fall is nice, and i try to shed a little light on everyone i deliver to because it feels so nice. everyone small talks about how they hate how cold it's getting, and i try to remind them that it's beautiful and they would've killed for this weather during the summer. the weather and the color of the trees is - god, it's seriously breathtaking.
i stand at the register at work, taking people's orders, and trying to run everything in and out of my ears fast to keep with the pace of the store, but my mind is always outside where the yellow leaves are blowing around. everyone looks beautiful in the fall. i know that i have to be glowing, because in the midst of every stressful thing, nature really screams that i am loved.

daily, i keep up with blogs of the ones closest to me. i have them tagged onto my home screen on my phone so i feel closer, and i become almost instantaneously happier. reading what everyone does in the morning, their conversations with the ones they love. reading what they think about during the day. i just want to be inside everyone's brain. i'm always curious, "what are you thinking?". i like to hear what goes on, and your opinions, i like knowing what the trees make you think of, what color i am. i like hearing what you think about what i'm wearing. or what someone said to you that made you inquisitive about things. really, i want to be a part of everything that makes you feel. i always want to be closer.

it's nice being so intwined in hearts of some people that you can think about hugging them for the first time in four months and tear up. thinking about hugging charlotte and drinking tea with her in her tv room. god, i really could live in that moment. sitting at her kitchen table in the morning, and looking at how we are both radiant in the mirror by the windows that overlook her mom's garden. even when we look busted, we cuddle in the morning, and enjoy criticizing the books her mom reads- just from our judgement by skimming over the pages.

i'm so excited for the upcoming weeks, and the upcoming months, because things are falling into place, and we are all so blessed. it's in the air, really.