a coney island of the mind

I need out of my AP English class.
Miller.
My friend Tyler had him when he was a senior and loved his class. "It changed my life.".....
Tyler is the type of guy who loves school. LOVES it. He's extremely smart and told me that Miller's class was a challenge to him - that scares me. I'm terrified. Everything that Miller says is so far above me. I doodle during class to help myself concentrate, but I catch myself writing things like "I NEED out of this class !", or once I heard Miller talk about something "oozing" so I drew this weird picture of something "oozing" out.

I don't feel like I should be on Miller's level, but I do feel like I should grab onto something he says, at least. And, I do.. I just don't see the relevance. Miller told us that he has high expectations and that he isn't easily impressed with writing. Writing is the majority of the whole class. I'm terrified. That's why I feel like I need out.

I signed up for the counselor today during zero hour, but didn't get called in. So I went after lunch to talk to her, and she told me that she's completely swamped and she's still on Friday's long long long long long list of people. Which means that I'm probably going to get some crazy writing assignment in Miller's class, be expected to do it, then be stressed out. I don't even know if it's possible for me to get out of his class. I love everyone in Miller's class. There's a really great circle of people in there and I hate to leave it, but I feel like I need to for the sake of my grade.

Stressed at day 3 of school.
Cool.