this too shall pass

ill write better.

lately - -

crap load of homework laying on my shoulders, tightening my jaw. waking me up in the morning. this too shall pass.

worrying about quartz admission. we find out this week.

what do i do with my life; the eternal question. will we ever know?

looking down at my right middle finger, the turquoise gem wrapped in sterling silver and that beautiful lady named Julie from Arkansas who sold it to me. med fair with my brother. the stars, compatibility with the stones, native.

prom. .. . ... ..

my sister. my blood. my first grade love. alley in massachusetts. woke up with IVs. conversation with patty, drove around sobbing. dialing anyone who would answer. please answer. i was a wreck.

"i feel very lucky".

sigh of relief.

i don't know you anymore with your flat-front shorts.

i keep daydreaming -

braces

college

you

me

living alone

only a part of me, holding my hand?

sometimes thats all i can see.

my statues of everything good, and everything right.

the smell of faerie wings

floating and soaring around, entangling itself in my fibers.

the stones, the water.

the turquoise masks.

leather shoes

and the stairs.

stairs.